♡My Little heart♡

已经不再是那种天天发信息的人了。也习惯了手机长期的沉默,

所以,很多的信息也懒得去回。但是仍然很感激信息这个东西的存在。让我们,陆续仍然会有联系,以及,牵挂。昨天晚上,很早就坚持不住去睡觉了。第二天早上收到了狒狒很长的一条信息。诉说寂寥.

跟"脱毛"同学说着王小波,跟XX说着她"失恋".

以及龙蠢说,C21要聚会了。问我回不回.(抓狂了,5.1好想回去。>.<)

跟小莉说一些没营养的对话.

知道么?偶尔收到你们的信息.我很开心。!

在春天时候,学校木棉开花了。~红红大大的花,高高的木棉,有四楼那么高。!(在学校四楼Fa厕所取的景~)

家楼下,记得那天的太阳,明媚,!傍晚回家的时候,云很浅,很好看。

以前的YL..下雪的时候。

现在深中,某天早上。暴雨之前的景象.用手机临时拍的.十分之不清晰。

是的,有很多很多生活中很平常的景色,也许以后都会成为我所留恋,为之驻足的色彩。

哈,那些还在YL的小孩们,还好吧?应该有了很多新的建筑了吧,..我的YL寄宿呀,你原本面貌,就一直一直,停留在我脑海里了呀。其实记忆最深刻的景色,还是钟楼顶上俯视的景象,但是,现在可能视野不那么开阔了。尤其,以前可以望到我喜欢的田野.!平坦,空旷。现在听说建了个看台.- -讨厌讨厌讨厌讨厌!!!!看台再好看,也比不上那个毫无修饰的矮墙外面的自由的田野。

哈,又记错7号生日了。I'm so sorry.

现在看到窗外,是交通银行那个高高的建筑,以及它显眼的标志,.它的标志是红色的,最不容易发生色散的颜色。像一个小小的太阳.映红了周围的空气..这几天晚上的风颇为凉爽,因为贪凉,害自己有点感冒。~家的后方是宽宽的而且吵吵的北环路,而北环的另一侧,是山,,,是覆盖了绿树的山。晚上的时候,可以看到红岭中学明亮的教室的灯光,每次看到,,都会想到以前自己坐在教室里面自习的样子。还有那些虫子,,想到虫子,就想到思思花了整个晚自习碾虫子,而且把它们的尸体都放在一张纸上,旦旦跑过去看.目瞪口呆.寄宿生活,真好.因为大家..更加亲近..宿舍和像家.YY老师,是我们的大"妈妈"~哈哈。

那个梦,太让我担心.!如果不是它,我也不知道奶奶原来对于我这么这么的重要。我,要好好珍惜,,生下来的第一份礼物是什么呢?是身边的亲情.而从我有记忆以来的亲情,最依恋的。还是跟奶奶之间的情感。在她的膝下长大,自己的童年,是纯洁的没有一点污染的记忆。因为身边的人,周围的环境,都是那么芬芳。没有杂质..刚刚给长沙打了电话,了解到他们一切安好。总算放心很多。

我是从什么时候开始变得这么爱为大人,长辈操心了呢?~

妈妈下午会回家了。其实,她走的这些日子,有些时候,我是想她的..但是,却更希望她可以跟爸爸多待一些时日。

昨天晚上开始感觉,我变得越来越肤浅了。看肤浅的书,听肤浅的歌,.变成了一个肤浅的人。虽然不喜欢肤浅,但是,却不讨厌肤浅的自己.那么,是因为已经肤浅到不讨厌肤浅了么?呵呵。

我,讨厌文艺.讨厌文艺的人,所以，我是肤浅的人了吧?已经没有办法静下心来去读那些,美丽的,用生命经历换取的文学造诣的文字。听着那些歌,歌里唱着"我爱你,你为什么不爱我"之类的东西。真正的艺术,不是这样的。但是,我不懂艺术,我是个肤浅的人,我听"我怀念你,.因为我爱你"

下面是,一首肤浅的,但是我很喜欢的歌词。我这个年龄,不肤浅,什么时候肤浅?!

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn't realize it at the time
I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don't really expect you to either
It's just... I don't even know
Just listen…

You're the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn't me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it's raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn't want to get hurt
But I didn't know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn't care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don't know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You're number one, always in my heart
And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart

[Chorus]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I'm insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I'm not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

[Chorus]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking]
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you'll always be in my heart
You'll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can't take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I'm still there
I don't wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn't think you would ever do me like this
I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
I thought you'd be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying
Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying

[Chorus]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking]
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we'll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

歌名叫,You were my everything

作为背景的女生的声音,像风一样,很美好,好动听,

男生的声音.看了歌词之后，也会心疼。

.孔粑粑,一看到评论从0到1.

我就知道,你来看我了。似乎已经成了习惯。

最近感冒了,呼吸有点困难,作业也没有写..但是,无力的指头还是选择过来敲击键盘.又很想描写天气.因为,无阳光,很符合生病了的心情。

"难过,独自承担".一个人的难过,苦痛,除他之外的任何人都不能了解.就像梦境一样.谁也无法进入.

人,是独立的个体,很多事情都是要自己一个人去承担的。每个人都有着自己的世界,那个世界,谁也无法进入.我想,这可以很好解释老师说的"每个人与生倨来的孤独感".

从来都不想排除这样的孤独感,谁说抑郁就是病态?谁说开心就是健康??这都是谁下的定义?!

因为抑郁,你会过早结束生命

可是,谁说出生是开始?谁说死亡是终结?!

是因为一场又一场的告别,最终.剩下了孤身一人.给予了孤单.

还是孤单给予你一场又一场的告别?!

孤独,有什么可怕?

孤独,很可怕.

因为我们自身都是很可怕的.怕自己,所以怕孤单.

生活,黑白颠倒,变化天翻地覆.但是,我们最终还是会适应.所以,我不怕变化,不怕所有人的背弃.因为,最终会习惯。哪怕最爱的人的离开.

离开吧,哪怕用尽我的眼泪来敷平记忆的灼伤.也会习惯,最终,会习惯..

只是你的离开,会让我有深刻的负罪感.因为,我没有尽我该尽的义务与力量。

我已完全没有勇气去面对将来,已经失去了想要变强大的意志..因为.我病了

难过时候

独自承担。